In the last week, I have had quite a few conversations with people who have told me their business ideas. The talks between them all were consistent; they all admired that I had started my blog page and YouTube channel. They all admired the guts it took to create something in the public eye. It was also stated that they would not have the courage to do something so general in case they were to fail.
When they said this, I thought, “There is that possibility that all my hard work may not go anywhere–and yes, everyone would know as I have posted, shared, and publicly announced my page, blogs, website, and YouTube channel.” That tiny voice of doubt attempted to creep into my head. Then, I realized I was like everybody else. “Maz, stop doubting yourself; you know that gets you nowhere.”
The Process of Doubt
I experienced my first case of writer’s block when writing for another Motivational Website that had approached me. I jumped onto their site, looked at some articles, and thought, “Yes, this is aligned with what I like to write about.” I then jumped onto their YouTube channel, and the first video I saw had over 20.5 million views. I hadn’t even come close to experiencing this kind of exposure. I felt a lump in my throat as I tried to gulp.
“What am I supposed to write to get this many people engaged? What if nobody likes what I put out there? I have only been blogging for a month; what if people think I don’t have enough credibility?” Various questions of doubt started to speak to me. I had no idea what to write about, and I felt nervous.
Faces of people smirking at me reappeared in my head. Some people smirked when they found out what I was doing. People thought I was crazy starting my new venture and thinking I would get somewhere with it. “You need proper camera gear if you are going to film on YouTube; you need to take tutorials on editing; you should work on your grammar. You need to stop twitching your face or making those expressions you do.” All the voices of everyone telling me what I was doing wrong floated around me.
I stayed home all weekend to work on The Fitness Freedom Flow, yet I didn’t feel like I was getting anywhere. Since I started my blog page, writing has come so easily. An idea would inspire me; an hour later, it was published online. Things just seemed to flow. Now, I am, struggling to think of the first sentence or even a topic to write about. Frustrated, I decided to give it a break and sleep on it.
I had my green tea as usual when I woke up this morning. I then had some breakfast and was drilling my head into what I should write. “Maybe I should just write for my page for now.” I still had no clue as to what I should write about. I was at a dead end. I decided to meditate and calm my mind as it raced a million miles an hour.
This is why I have decided to write this blog. I realized that I finally came to a roadblock because, for the first time since starting my blog page, I stopped and started thinking about what others thought of me. I started listening to the people that doubted me. I began to doubt my ability and wondered if what I did would even be worth my time.
Clearing the Flow
Sometimes our minds get so cluttered and are filled with too many thoughts. For me, it helps if I calm my mind and slow down. This is where meditation has helped me. When I do this, my intuition tells me things and helps guide me in the right direction. I gain a sense of clarity, and it helps bring me back down to earth. Meditation keeps me grounded. If you don’t practice it, I suggest you give it a go. It does work wonders.
Since starting my blog page, I feel it has given my life great purpose. I jump out of bed, and the first thing I do is start working on my page. Not because I have to, but because I want to. I thoroughly enjoy being able to speak of my experiences and talk about topics that I am passionate about. It is also fantastic to receive emails from people worldwide telling me that the blog they just read has inspired them. I love hearing their own stories that I am lucky enough for them to share with me.
My goal is to be able to help motivate and inspire others through my own experiences. There are many more topics I want to discuss in the future that I feel can make a difference and maybe help the right person at the right time. That possibility excites me. For the first time in my life, I feel like I am following my purpose, which is why I have experienced some of the things I have in the past. If I can do something that gives back goodness to the world, why not?
If you are reading this and there is a business venture, a relationship decision, or a creative idea that you have always had but have been too scared to take action towards, I encourage you to take the first step. If you are dwelling on a decision and the only thing holding you back is a failure or what other people may think of you, take a second and think to yourself. Does it make you happy? If you were doing whatever it is you are currently wishing you could do, can you see yourself happy? If the answer is yes, my question is, why would you hold yourself back from happiness?
What is the Role Happiness Plays?
We all deserve to be happy. We all deserve to be able to follow our passions. If it makes you smile or changes your life for the better, then go for it. You don’t have anything to lose. What’s the worse that could happen? You end up back where you started, which is right at this very moment now. If that is the case, you didn’t lose anything, did you? You got the chance to open yourself up to new experiences, and I bet you would’ve learned a lot along the way. So in hindsight, you still gained something.
I am still learning along the way, and I have to learn much more. I am blessed that I have gained so much traction with my blogs in the month I have done this. It is an absolute privilege that I have been published on Lifehack.org, and it makes my heart sing to know that already in such a short time, there are people out there that appreciate my work.
A month ago, I didn’t even know how to build a website or make a video. I didn’t even know that I could write. So fail or not, I have still gained. I have learned so much already and am excited about everything I will know in the future. This journey has been so much fun,, and I do enjoy it.
I do hope that you start your journey towards your passions if you’re not already. Life is short, and we can’t take it for granted. Tomorrow is never promised. Do whatever it is that makes you smile. What’s life without those moments of happiness?
